Reasons.

I've been sitting here for the past 10 minutes thinking about what it is I want to write a little blog about. Everything I thought of I dismissed because I was concerned with the way it would be perceived by anyone who may come across this. But the more I thought of it, the more I realized the reasoning behind this blog. It honestly isn't so I can become famous or get recognition and popularity with my views and thoughts. It is honestly and genuinely for myself. I came to the realization that the name of this blog is exactly what this blog is. A mess of thoughts. Thats all I am. I was never good at keeping journals or diaries of any sort, which is a main reason as to why I don't blog often. So, my mind has always had a way of entertaining itself and dealing/venting to itself. One of the reasons why I am so good at being alone in many different meanings of the word. But, I started to decide, I think of a lot of insane things. And there really isn't anyone around that truly understands in the way I would need someone to. My mother does an amazing job of listening to me, and my brother isn't too bad either, but the truth is my mind is strange. I think of ideas and scenarios and just anything, that people usually don't think of. I find things humorous that most don't, so it helps the result of slight social awkwardness. I have friends, I won't deny that fact, but they don't really get me entirely. I don't see anyone as understanding entirely, no matter how VERY close they are to it. So, this thing is for me. And I'm not making this blog post to make people think that I "don't care what others think" or that I'm different from other bloggers, that I'm special. Again, this post is mainly for me, and if you happen to be a passer-by and wonder why the hell I'm posting what I'm posting, it is an explanation for the both of us.